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| damnnn its been a minute huh.. I guess i jus been wrapped up in shyt at skool n whuteva.. but im happy cuz im talkin to joe g right now! tha fukas been locked up a few times so i aint talked to him ina while. im glad hes aight tho.. yay  so i picked up tha new white stripes today.. its hella good. i wanted tha new outkast but it was sold out. *thumbs down* Jillians bf dumped her.. hes immature.. shes my best friend n needs a better dude in her life... Hmm.. whut else.. my older sis's house in Ferndale is gonna be finished next month.. i wanna go see it , but naw im stuck out here in washington. i swear when i graduate im OUT. whut else.. I think i finally got my studio hook up.. but im not gonna hold my breath.. cuz people in tha music business can be shady as hell.. n ive been let down 1 too many times. i dunno whut else to write.. my feet r cold right now! -sio | | |
| hmm... woke up today with a call from her. i was hoping that would happen.. so my day started out koo.. but im sucha punk when it comes to talkin on tha phone.. i couldnt jus tell her how i feel. bla. uhh lata on i went downtown to tha saturday market. man there were sum cuties there. i luh my sis n errything but she jus is not street smart.. her mouth gon get her killed one day. but yea.. jus chillin now.. talkin to brittni.
me: i hate actin like shyt is fine man
her: how have u been actin like its fine?
me: like when we were talkin today
me: i never brought anything up
me: but its like whenever i try to talk bout how im feelin bout sumthin bad i get all emotional n shyt n i dont want her to hear me cry
her: then why do u talk to her?
her: tell her that u wanna be wit her
i need to get my mind straight | | |
| This is my favorite quotes section. More ta come.
I've kissed a guy. I've kissed guys. I just havent felt that thing. That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amzing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that that it will go away all at the same time.
-Never Been Kissed
Be who you are and say how you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.
-Dr. Seuss
Word up, but love is brave
It flies in the face of fear
Yo, wherever you want to go love'll take you there
Let's go, you know a flower that grow in the ghetto
Know more about survival than the one from fresh meadows
It got love for the sun, that's where I'm comin from
Spit in this fashion cause I love rockin over drums
Word (te quiero) I put my love into my music
If you with me then you love how I do it
If my heart you're livin' in your ocean I'm swimmin' in
Never drowning got me floatin' watching you in slow motion
Love potion overdosin approachin
The explosion of my senses everyday without your heart
is like a sentence in jail
Trust I'll always be mentally free
You got the key to let it out I'll show you how it could be
Love- it ain't nuttin but a word
A chicken ain't nuttin but a bird
-Talib Kweli
Flowers need water to grow, it gotta rain
And in order to experience joy you need pain
Every time a baby is born, somebody slain
You know the saying, somebody's lose is another's gain
-Jay Z
So what's the difference between rap and hip hop? It's like sayin you love someone, or you're in love with someone. Rap is just a word.
-Brown Sugar
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| Man I dont even kno anymore. Nicole, Devin, Monica, and Kylee aren't coming back to St Marys. *Thumbs down*.. Im sad. Only a handful of people at that skool keep me groundin.. and they are some of them. sadness. Well... I looked up to see how much it would be to take a bus across tha country.. $338!?!?!? WTF??? Thas a f'in plane ride. damn. I was mad. There goes my plan. I'm sick of always trying to be content with life. I hate being under age. I hate not being able to make decisions about my own life. Its so frustrating. I am a person to believe in fate.. if thats tha right word. And right about now I feel like I kno where I'm supposed to be.. and who I'm supposed to be with. But since im "young" I have almost no control over that. Damn tha United States is a sad place.. "Land of tha free"... right. Almost all kids are afraid of they parents.. and are like robots to them. Me included. How nice. I guess I'm just gonna do my best in skool this year.. Take tha SAT's prolly.. look around at sum colleges back east or in Cali. And prolly get a job. I want to support myself when I leave my house. Not be a mama's gurl for tha rest of my life. I used to think if I worked hard at my music I could get somewhere with it. But getting almost no support.. really doesn't push me. I decided to take a break from it.. It really jus irritates me when I try so hard, and then I see these fuckas on tv, or hear them on tha radio.. and it's not even for tha love of it. Its for money. Its sad man.. real sad. Dont get me wrong, making money off expressing myself would be great, but that wouldnt be my insentive. I dont kno. I hate that I have this up/down type of personality. Happy one minute, upset tha next. I need to figure myself out...and I need to admit that she was there for me when no one else was.. I need her right now.. I really do... | | |
| i feel so... i dont even kno. ive never felt like dependant on someone before.. so i guess this is kind of a slap in tha face. at first i was cryin non stop.. neva cried that much since when my cousin died.. but then i calmed myself down n tried to think of happy shyt.. iono. i'm empty. 1 | | |
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